It is always hard to say goodbye

Pri 1 has started for slightly more than a month. And I have been bringing Big K to school almost daily. The daily 20 mins or so is a good catch-up/bonding time between us, although we do a range of 'stuff' - from revising his spelling or 听写, to him sharing what they might do for the day to being scolded/warned for his stubbornness and rude behaviour etc. Literally everything under the sun. I still wouldn't trade these daily 20 mins for anything. And I get to do this with Lil K next year!!

Big K has adjusted to school really well, always ready and eager to go to school. Each morning, as we bid good bye after a hug and kiss, my heart always feels heavy and tight. I can almost always feel a tear or two ever ready to fall from the corners of my eyes. This sayonara ritual each morning almost always puts me in a bad space for a few minutes and this is where the daily internal conversations comes up. Each morning, as I head to board the train to work, I struggle alot with my emotions and conversations. 

I absolutely dislike the tug of war feeling with my heavy heart. I keep having this huge blanket of guilt hanging above my head like a halo.

I am also on a Pri 1 journey (once again) although mine ended a duper long time ago. I too need to adjust and get clear with my thoughts, decisions, emotions etc. I hope I will be better as the days past.

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