Big K's 2018 Pri 1 Journey

2 Jan 2018 is a date that I dread and wished it never arrived (in major denial) cos Big K embarks on a new journey of his life.  New journey for all at home, tweaks here and there too - trying to be the best, patient & understanding mum possible (which i failed), be considerate of his emotions & mood, be mindful that Lil K doesn't get left out etc....

This week is a torture, both physically & mentally. It is WORSE than working. While I don't really love my work anymore because of people and their ridiculous mind games, I would still rather go to work than play maid for an entire week. Ferry both kids to and from school, trying to stay awake & occupied while waiting for time to pass and not in the mood & space to do my work; this is indeed tedious.

Do I regret taking 5 days of leave when there are work waiting to be completed & the crap that I will be in when I return to work next week? Not really!! I cannot buy back these precious 5 days journey with Big K. I cannot buy back the in-between time with the boys. I know I would definitely beat myself up big time if I hadn't taken these 5 days of leave.

Fast forward - Big K settled fast into the new environment. He was being duper cool about it, though I knew he was nervous and anxious on Day 1. My oils came to the rescue. I applied Va**r on him before and upon reaching school. That helped calmed and settled him and each day I am met with a happy face at dismal time.

I am proud that Big K wakes up on time and duper eager to go to school. Would love to see how long this enthusiasm lasts cos I am certain it will be totally different once homework and routine kicks in.

But for now... I shall remind myself to enjoy these happy and eager moments beforethe storm starts. One more day to the end if the first week and I am super proud of myself and achievements.

Keeping fingers crossed for the remaining 50+ weeks and keeping myself sane and grounded. 

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